Dance to the Beat of your own drum.

To me Dance is the hidden language of the soul, it is the vertical expression of an horizontal desire. I find Life to be a bit like dancing. If we have a big floor, many people will dance, even though some will get angry when the rhythm changes. But life is changing all the time, and so does the beat in which we dance along to it. And heck Nobody cares if you can't dance well. Just get up and dance. Great dancers are great because of their passion, and they also happen to live the happier lives.

"Those who dance are considered insane by those who cannot hear the music.” 

Can I just be Chachi or nah?

Why does God do that ?

I don’t know why God would create such beautiful things & then cause so much controversy . Weed is illegal , but some people believe otherwise . Gay marriage is illegal in some states still . God created both things . why does the world have to be so hard headed & find things inappropriate for the mind of children . we grow up wondering why people die & get cancer . why did God let the good people to meet him so quickly . and left the shitty ass people down on earth to cause mayhem , to kill innocent children who haven’t done nothing but want too go outside & play freely . I want to meet God & ask him ask these questions . I don’t want to live in fear that one day in the future there will be war in the US & we’ll have to fight for our lives & survive on nothing but rotten leftovers from weeks / months ago . God created Gays , weed & he let some horrible ass people live & cause so much damage when we all wonder what peace really feels like. I wonder when God will let me meet him in his wonderful world we call heaven . I hope to be up there with my whole family & pet dog Tegan and I just wanted to let the world to read my thoughts.

Rest in Peace to those who have passed away . I hope you are where I hope to be one day.

8 Ways To Say I Love You.

So I found this on Tumblr and I just think its beautiful plus I know Megan is reading this and she loves all this crap haha.

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8 Ways To Say I Love You

1. Spit it into her voicemail, a little slurred and sounding like the shot whiskey you downed for courage. Feel as ashamed as you do walking into work in last night’s clothes. Wake up cringing for days, waiting for her to mention it.

2. Sigh it into her mouth, wedged in between teeth and tongues. Don’t even let your lips move when you say it, ever so lightly, into the air. Maybe it was just an exhalation of ecstasy.

3. Buy her flowers. Buy her chocolate. Buy her a teddy bear, because that’s what every romantic comedy has taught you. Take her out to a nice restaurant where neither of you feel comfortable and spend the whole night clearing your throat and tugging at your tie. Feel like your actions are more suited to a proposal than the simple confession of something you’ve always known.

4. Whisper it into her hair in the middle of the night, after you’ve counted the space between her breaths and are certain she’s asleep. Shut your eyes quickly when she shifts toward you in askance. Maybe you were just sleep whispering.

5. Blurt it out in the middle of an impromptu dance party in the kitchen, as clumsy as your two left feet. When time seems to freeze, hastily tack on “in that shirt” or “when you make your award-winning meatballs” or, if you are feeling particularly brave, “when we do this.” Resume dancing and pretend you don’t feel her eyes on you the rest of the night.

6. Write her a letter in which the amount of circumnavigating and angst could rival Mr. Darcy’s. Debate where to leave it all day – on her pillow? In her coat pocket? Throw it away in frustration, conveniently leaving it face up in the trashcan, her name scrawled on the front in your sloppy handwriting. Let her wonder if you meant it.

7. Wait until something terrible has happened and you can’t not tell her anymore. Wait until she almost gets hit by a car crossing Wabash against the light and after you are done cursing at the shit-for-brains cab drivers in this city, realize you are actually just terrified of living without her. Tell her with your hands shaking.

8. Say it deliberately, your tongue a springboard for every syllable. Over coffee, brushing your teeth side-by-side, as you turn off the light to go to sleep – it doesn’t matter where. Do not adorn it with extra words like “I think” or “I might.” Do not sigh heavily as if admitting it were a burden instead of the most joyous thing you’ve ever done. Look her in the eyes and pray, heart thumping wildly, that she will turn to you and say, “I love you too.”

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My BEEEAUUUTiful Mum.

I love you

I just wanted to say how luck I am to have such a wonderful mum. If I grow up to be a 10th of the women my mum is, I will have succeed in life and die happy. This women is by far the most intelligent, clever, kindest, person you'll ever meet and I love her to death, I have no idea what I would do without her, She goes out of her way to make sure that I can fulfill my dreams and ambitions, and doesn't top until she gets what she wants. She has given me so many opportunities and chances at reaching goals that I can never pay her back. There really aren't enough words to describe how much she means to me, and how proud I am of her for achieving everything she has. Thank you for everything mum. I Love You. <3 

Normal Isn't....

Normal isn't getting dresses in clothes that you buy for work, driving through traffic in a car that you are still paying off, in order to get a job that you need so you can pay for your clothes, car and the house that you leave empty all day in order to afford to live in it. It doesn't make sense to me. Society and people are fucked; if you end up with a boring miserable life because you listened to your mum, your dad, your teacher, your priest, or some guy on TV telling you how to do your shit then you deserve it. The world is going to judge you no matter what you do, so live the way you fucking want to. And hey if you ever find yourself taking life a little to seriously just remember; we are talking moneys on an organic spaceship flying through the universe. Because at the end of the day

the most dangerous risk of all is the risk of spending your whole life not doing what you want on the bet that you can buy yourself the freedom to do it later, you never know what tomorrow might bring. Positive mind. Positive vibes. Positive Life. Its a beautiful world.

Greece

The sea was sapphire coloured, and the sky
Burned like a heated opal through the air;
We hoisted sail; the wind was blowing fair
For the blue lands that to the eastward lie.
From the steep prow I marked with quickening eye
Zakynthos, every olive grove and creek,
Ithaca's cliff, Lycaon's snowy peak,
And all the flower-strewn hills of Arcady.
The flapping of the sail against the mast,
The ripple of the water on the side,
The ripple of girls' laughter at the stern,
The only sounds: -when 'gan the West to burn,
And a red sun upon the seas to ride,
I stood upon the soil of Greece at last! 

GET ANGRY!!!

Harold Ramis, the actor and director most famous to people of my generation for his role as Egon in the movie Ghostbusters, once laid down his rule for success: 'Find the most talented person in the room, and if it's not you, go stand next to him. Hang out with him. Try to be helpful.' Ramis was lucky: The most talented person in the room was his friend Bill Murray. 

If you ever find that you're the most talented person in the room, you need to find another room.

I am one of those annoying people that sees a lot of stupid stuff and feels the need to correct it. One time I was up late one night in my room and my mum yelled up to me "QUIT PICKING FIGHTS AND GO MAKE SOMETHING." She was right. However anger happens to be one of my favorite creative resources. Henry Rollins has said he is both angry and curious, and that's what keeps him moving. If I ever find it hard to get out up one morning, I lie in bed, go on twitter or Facebook, or read the news until my my blood starts to boiling and  I get fired up enough to spring out of bed. But instead of wasting that anger and lashing out at people, I try and channel it in to a new dance piece or choreograph a new piece to add to my portfolio. 

SOOO, go on, get angry. But keep your mouth shut and go make a difference to your own life. 

I'm Sorry

I've gotten out of touch with the ones who gave me my wings to fly.

HOW?!

How the hell could someone ever enjoy being awakened at 6:30am by an alarm clock, leap out of bed, dress, force-feed, shit, piss, brush teeth and hair, and fight traffic to get to a place where you made a lot of money for somebody else and were asked to be grateful for the opportunity to do so? Corporate Routine isn't a privileged opportunity, its an outcome of what society throws at you.

I Kirsty King Want to Live an Extraordinary life

Not too long ago, around graduation time; I woke up with the overwhelming feeling that my life was just passing me by, I realized I wasn't taking advantage of this short life that we live. SO i've decided that starting September (or whenever I'm allowed to leave this country..) I'm going to take every opportunity possible to travel this beautiful planet we live on. Why you ask? I guess this Earth we live on is such an amazing place filled with such fascinating people, it almost seems a waste not to see every corner of it possible. Ever heard of Alan Watts? Unfortunately he died already 40 years ago, but he said something that I can’t get out of my head: 

"If you say that getting the money is the most important thing,
you will spend your life completely wasting your time.
You'll be doing things you don't like doing in order to go on living,
that is to go on doing things you don't like doing - which is stupid.
Better to have a short life, that is full of what you like doing,
than a long life spending a miserable way..."

Money makes me feel terribly claustrophobic, I hate that in this day and age we are pretty much defined in society by how much money we earn or much money our parents earn. I hate the death grip money holds on this earth. I mean what would you do all day if you didn't need to earn money anymore? What makes you happy? What excites you? What do you love? How would you really enjoy spending your life?

- Nobody stops and asks themselves these questions anymore because we're all so caught up on my our phones with social media, or too busy worrying about bills to pay. However I vow to myself that I will see as much of this beautiful planet as I possibly can before I die. Yes at some point I will squeeze in college... I'm not stupid, I realize I'm going to need a back up plan. But I fully intend on this being my life. I Kirsty King want to live an Extraordinary life.

Guilty is Charged.....

No matter how good or bad you think LIFE is, wake up each day and be THANKFUL to god for life. Someone somewhere is fighting to survive. 

Let’s face it, we all mess up. No one is free of failure. But, life isn’t about avoiding making mistakes; it is about how we respond and grow through them. Are you willing to allow God to transform you?

Lets get this straight

You like/liked her, but you're not sure if you want to be with her, but you like her enough to have sex with her, but you're not sure if you want to be more than just friend, but you want her to think of you as her boyfriend, but you enjoy being single, but you don't want anybody else to get at her, but you can flirt with other girls or even like other girls but you get jealous when other guys talk to her, but you don't want to talk to her all the time, but you want her to pay attention to only you, but you think its annoying when she blows up your phone, but you don't like it when she talks to other guys, but you don't want to be tied down yet, but you want her to act like she's your girl, but you don't want to be in a relationship, but you want her to be loyal to just you, but you wanna have fun right now, but you want to be loved by her, but you're not ready to commit to only her? yeah....the 21st century relationship sucks. 

Questions

Have you ever wanted to just a question, but have been to afraid of the answer you might receive or the way the person my react if you ask them that question? Because over the past few months I have found myself wanting ever more to ask questions.. but holding back. I've assumed instead out of fear of the truth or doubt of reality. 

Which hasn't aided me in anyway shape or form. In fact assuming has caused me a great deal of trouble and pain in the very recent past, and I have vowed to myself never again. On the other hand, I still can't bring myself to ask questions; If asked at all they are to myself in which I come to no truthful answer. 

Why do I assume in the first place?

Now that I know the answer to! Fear. Doubt. I assumed I wasn't good enough... For example just the fact that someone like that would even pay a second of attention to me was unbelievable to me, the idea that they would ever even think of me twice was unimaginable. So I just went with what I thought they wanted, instead of asking questions...because I feared that I'd bug them or piss them off. I don't know what I was thinking, I really don't. 
I couldn't even tell you why I am writing this right now...for anyone to see, but Hey oh well!

Bigger Better Plans

If children have the ability to ignore all odds and percentages, then maybe we can all learn from them. When you think about it, what other choice is there but to hope? We have two options, medically and emotionally: give up, or fight like hell.


The first time I read this, I lost my breath, and I got goose bumps. All too often, we forget about the people emotional fight while they may be physically fighting a pain as well But just because of a illness causing physical pain doest mean there is no emotional pain. For example cancer; cancer is a disease of the body, mind, and soul, and far to often we forget that despite the pain physically, the emotional pain can be just as horrific. 
I've lost 7 people in my life to cancer; It bloody sucks. As much as I wanted to crawl in to a ball and throw myself a pity party over losing someone to such an horrific disease  I didn't. I couldn't. I wasn't the one in pain, I was the one with a healthy life, if they couldn't live there life to the full; I swore to myself that I would live my life for them. Some people are taken far to early; most of the time it happens to the nicest people as well; I guess heaven missed them and needed them more than me, However at the time it didn't seem fair and I just wanted to be angry all the time. Why them? Why me? Why now? The questions are endless. But you have to believe that life had bigger better plans for them, that didn't belong here with us, and that God knew what he was doing.

You don't get to choose if you get hurt in this world...but you do have some say in who hurts you. I like my choices.”-John Green.

love..

We all have the potential to fall in love a thousand times in our lifetimes. It's easy. The first boy I ever loved was in 4th grade. His name was Sam; we talked about trees. The last boy I love will be someone I haven't even met yet, probably. They all count. But there are certain people you love who do something else; they define how you classify what love is supposed to feel like. These are the most important people in your life, and you'll meet maybe four or five of these people over the span of 80 years. But there's still one more tier to all this; there is always one person you love who becomes that definition. It usually happens retrospectively, but it happens eventually. This is the person who unknowingly sets the template for what you will always love about other people, even if some of these love ale qualities are self-destructive and unreasonable. The person who defines your understanding of love is not inherently different than anyone else, and they often just the person you happen to meet the first time you really, really, want to love someone. But that person still wins. They win, and you lose. Because for the rest of your life, they will control how you feel about everyone else. 

Becoming A Better Person

I've made a decision. I am going to become the change I wish to see in the world. Why you ask?

I've screwed up a lot in the last few weeks, I've hurt people, I've assumed things, and I've judged people. I've spent the last few weeks in a state of self hate, self pity and self destruction; I'm done with it. I'm done hurting the people I love. Even if it means hurting for awhile myself (give my heart sometime...it'll get there eventually.) 

From here on out, I'm going to be the new and improved me. I'm not saying by any means that i'm going to wake up tomorrow all peachy perfect; in-fact I don't think i'll ever be perfect. Heck I don't think anyone will ever be perfect. That right there is something I find so beautifully fascinating about the human race; we are all so different and unique, but despite our differences we form friendships and relationships with all our imperfections to show (I am aware some of us hide them.) 

But yeah back to being a better person...I've single handily managed to push away someone I really liked, I screwed it up big time... No I wasn't expecting to date and live happily ever after, but I wanted to have the chance to see the world with someone who wanted to see the world just as much as me. But no. I messed it up. So from here on out I am going to better myself inside and out. I'm going to take criticisms of me and turn them into self improvement. I want to prove to this world that I deserve to be here; I want to show how appreciative I am to wake up every morning in good health. 

BE THE CHANGE YOU WISH TO SEE IN THE WORLD.

Happiness

I believe the most important thing in life is to be happy. For every minute you spend angry, upset, or sad, you lose out on 60 seconds of happiness that you will never get back. This life we are given is a gift and it is up to you to make the most out of what you are given and make something of yourself; that doesn't necessarily mean go out and make million of dollars and buy a huge house and car. True happiness doesn't come from what you have or where you live. Happiness comes from you make of what you've got, and embracing the life you have. Knowing inside yourself what you truly deserve out of this life. Time is a precious thing; sooner or later it is going to run..its a fact in life that many of us struggle to come to terms with. You get a set amount of time on this planet.. how long? No one knows for sure, and that is EXACTLY why we need to value every second of time we are given on this beautiful planet and appreciate what we have and who we have because it could all be taken from you in a blink of an eye. Share your life with people who better your life and your soul. Surround yourself with good people. Now go spend your time. 

Where are we heading? No, I don’t mean it literally, I mean where we, as a society heading? I believe it was Darwin who said that the process of evolution is not complete. So, if we take it as a standard, the question still begs an answer, where are we heading? If the answer is towards a better and a brighter future and/or evolving, then I must seriously contest your answer. Look around you and tell me how have we evolved?

From the increase in the pollution to the destruction of our once beautiful eco-system to the destruction of the tall and majestic rainforests, wherever the eye can take a gander, I for one see no evolution and/or a bright future. Now don’t give me all that jazz about its all in the name of progress. I really don’t see how do we wish to progress by crushing the weak links and just going rampant over what ever arouses our lust or fury. True sacrifices must be made in order to win a war but if the number of sacrifices is far greater than those killed than chances are that you will lose.

No, before you ask I haven’t gone all green (though I do support the causes against global warming, environmental pollution etc.) I am just saying that as a society on every front we are constantly deteriorating (Today however I would only be covering our bases of respect and how much do we value knowledge). How? Well chee I don’t know, look around for once. When was the last time you actually saw someone caring about another human being just for the sake of humanity? When was the actual lasts time you saw someone giving without expecting a reward in return? When was the last time you saw people actually bothered to respect someone on the bases of his knowledge and not his pocket? Now, before you start to answer these questions please I implore you to look up the term “rhetorical questions”. It would save a lot of my time.

Now, you may not believe it but in the times of your father and grandfather people were respected on their knowledge. People who actually had knowledge, no matter how poor, were considered precious and respected in the society. It didn’t matter if the one respecting was rich or poor either. But today just look around, the ones who actually have wealth walk around as they rule everything and everyone should bow down to them. The ones stepping down from a Volvo, BMW, Mercedes, Land Rover etc are automatically considered respectful and people walk around them ready to kiss any posterior they can to get in their good graces. Now, I am not saying that those people are always not respectable; they might be but seriously is monetary value of someone’s assets really the best criterion for judging if the person should be a holder of your attention and time?

It’s really sad to see that money has become the goal of our society. Education is now sold, prime example being tuition centers (half of them can’t even spell the word tuition correctly) popping up everywhere and teachers actually supporting them more than institutions. I could rant endlessly on this but I digress. People actually rate others on the amount of cash in their pocket or the power they possess and not the knowledge nor the other person’s sincerity and loyalty. If you wish to test this, just go anywhere (where you are not known) in tattered clothes on a cycle and then to the same place in branded clothes on a luxurious ride, the difference would be evident. And the saddest part is that people actually have come to accept these rules of judgment and pass these rules subconsciously to their children.

seriously, look at this society where money matters more than any amount of knowledge or manners. Where at the end of the day it all comes down to who has more. A society where the only moral is either you eat or you get eaten. A society where each day and out people are slaughtered in one way or the other just because they are poor. A society which only knows how to follow the laws of the Jungle. Honestly, we are nothing more than animals.

Society, man! You know, society! Cause, you know what I don't understand? I don't understand why people, why every fucking person is so bad to each other so fucking often. It doesn't make sense to me. Judgment. Control. All that, the whole spectrum. - Alexander Supertramp

Most people spend their days thinking about loved ones or stressing over the little things in life that in few years won't even be a speck of importance on our life. I don't. Yes I have those days but I can't stand to sit and worry about things I have no control over, I can't stand to sit and overthink situations and what ifs and buts. I spend 80% of my alone time thinking about the I AM's not the maybes. I was born into this world a very lucky person and I count my blessings everyday for these opportunities I am given. I plan to live and Extraordinary life; no ifs, ands or buts about it. I WILL DO IT. On a daily basis I am asked 'Oh what college are you going to?' 'What are you going to study?' 'What career are you planning on?'

('Careers are a 20th century invention and I don't want one.' - Supertramp)

To which I usually respond with 'Not at the moment and I haven't a clue what I want to do, I'm 17...'
*followed by a rolling of the eyes of the other person*

Let me live my life how I want, I have to die when its time for me to die. Let me be.

“I am very happy
Because I have conquered myself
And not the world.
I am very happy
Because I have loved the world
And not myself.”

Life isn’t always easy. No matter how positive you are, how many smiles you spread, or how many uplifting quotes you share there will always be what seems to be just an down-and-out bad day. But, from those bad days you’ll come to learn, love, and appreciate even more the best days of your life.