Hey guys, I guess I am back to blogging for awhile. I realize that the things I post are probably not the most interesting pieces of work that the world has ever seen. I'm no J.K Rowling or Zoella, I know that.
Any who I came here to vent. I was sat on the bus today, travelling across campus with my headphones in jamming out to Jack Johnson. I was Minding my own business, when all of a sudden I became hyper aware of my surroundings; this happens to me every now and then. I can only describe it to you as that feeling you get when you say a word too many times and it begins to sound strange. it is similar to that. However this time I became aware of skin and my face and my body and everyone else's hair skin and body...It was totally freaky. I began to feel my self esteem lowering with each passing second I sat there. I have okay skin, large pores and darkish under eyes are my only real issues, and obviously the occasional breakout for a mental break down; because college. i have long blonde hair that reaches just above my hips and I stand at a comfortable 5'5. Yet for some reason today when I looked around I began to feel suer self conscious of my face and my hair and just myself in general to be honest. It was the strangest thing.
Why do we all struggle so much to self love ourselves. I think everyone is beautiful in their own ways. No matter if you do not have that perfect small pointy up nose or perfectly smooth flawless skin. I think we all have beautiful qualities about ourselves. And sometimes you just need to surround yourself with people who will let you feel beautiful. People who know how to pick you up when you're feeling down. People who know what to say to you to make you feel special. I need more of those people in my life right now...
Anyway I have no clue where this is going anymore and I have not proof read this and it probably does not make any sense what so ever, it is currently 12:56am on a Wednesday night... whoops.
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